Tuesday, August 9, 2011

confessions of a complain-aholic

I always thought I was pretty good at accepting criticism.  And for the most part, I am.  But just because I can handle a critique doesn’t mean I’m immune to that “kicked in the gut” feeling when someone points out one of my flaws.

And this is exactly the way I felt earlier this week when someone close to me {whom I respect} pointed out how much I tend to complain about my life, when—the truth is—I have a great life.

My first response?  I thought, “What?!? How could you say something like that??? I know sometimes I’m not happy with my circumstances, but that doesn’t mean I complain too much.  I think you are just overreacting… Or are you?  What have I complained about today?...  Oh… A lot… Maybe you’re right.”

I said, “I don’t know what to say.”

Enough said.  When I really think about it, there’s not much I haven’t complained about.  I complain about my job.  I complain about my lack of things to do.  I complain about how much I have to do.  I complain about school.  I complain about how I look, how I eat, how I feel.  I complain about the weather.  I’ve complained about my family.  I’ve complained about my friends.  I’ve complained about my boyfriend. 

I’m a complainer.  And, there’s nothing pretty about a complainer.

And I think the worst part is that I really have nothing to complain about.  God has blessed me beyond belief.  Words cannot describe how thankful I am for all He has done for me.

I had not one, but two jobs this summer with amazing people whom I will definitely miss.  This summer was demanding in a way that kept me busy but was also free from stress.  I absolutely love everything about JBU—the people, the classes, the atmosphere.  I have transformed the way I view and treat my body the past few months and have never felt more comfortable in my own skin.  The weather is—well, it’s the weather—and there’s nothing I can do to change it.  I have the absolute best family and friends a girl could ask for.  And last, but not least, I have a super-cute boyfriend who is pretty much amazing.

I know you’ve probably heard this verse a thousand times, but maybe it will take on new life today.

Do everything without complaining and arguing, so that no one can criticize you. Live clean, innocent lives as children of God, shining like bright lights in a world full of crooked and perverse people.

~2 Philippians 2:14-15

If I want to be free from criticism, if I want to live a clean and innocent life, if I want to shine bright in this dark world, I’m going to have to stop complaining.

So hold me accountable.  If you hear me complaining, you have permission to call me out on it.  And if you want, I’ll do the same for you.

So tell me—what have you complained about today?

1 comment:

  1. Ah, another excellent post from the amazing writer :D :D

    I've noticed myself doing this a lot too. Actually for Lent last year I told myself I couldn't complain as much anymore. I know...not exactly the kind of thing you're supposed to give up for Lent...but God used one of Rod's messages to convict me about it.

    So please, definitely call me out on it if you hear me doing it!!!!!!