Friday, December 30, 2011

2011: reflect.

It’s almost 2012. You know what that means? It’s time to reflect and project. It’s time to reflect on what made this year so special. It’s time to project all those goals and hopes and dreams for 2012.

But since I still have a couple of days to dream away, let’s do some reflection.

2011 was the year of less stress.

Don’t get me wrong. I still had those times I wanted to pull my hair out or I worried myself so much my tummy hurt. But, the end of the year looked significantly different from the beginning. That’s what I call progress.

I am trying to put my finger down on exactly what changed. I guess my beautiful mother said it best in the quote she wrote in the front of my planner this school year. “I have all the time I need to do all God intends for me to do this year.”

And for the first time, I believed that and trusted in God to take care of everything. The result? I was more rested, more relaxed and {hopefully} more fun. You’d have to consult my friends on that last one, though.

2011 was the year of the pen {or the word processor}.

I wrote sooooo stinking much this year. And loved every minute of it! I wrote in my journal. I wrote for the school paper. I wrote for my blog. I wrote for my internship. I wrote for my classes. I wrote for myself.

And, for the first time, I had people tell me their writing touched them. They told me they could relate to what I was saying. They said my writing had relevance.

It’s words like that let me know I’m doing what God wants for me… so far. Though my future just seems like a big blur rapidly approaching, I know it will have something to do with writing.

2011 was the year of no chocolate.

So, I’ve almost done it. I’ve almost gone an entire year without my favorite food. Most people don’t understand why I would attempt such a feat in the first place, but I’m not sure they understood how much chocolate I consumed beforehand.

But believe it or not, I learned a couple of things during this challenge. I learned that self-control is possible, even when your whole family orders a “chocolate mess” for dessert and proceeds to eat it while teasing you the entire time. I learned that there are plenty of delicious and satisfying non-chocolate desserts that I never knew about. I learned that {despite the teasing sometimes} I am surrounded by family and friends who want to help me achieve my goals.

And, I learned that I will never go a year without chocolate again—even if I ended the year seven pounds lighter than I started it. {Not that the two have any correlation.}

2011 was the year of waiting.

I’m sort of continuing this thought from my summer reflection. Mostly because it’s been four more months and I’m still waiting.

I’m waiting to hear back from another internship. I’m waiting for the second half of my junior year to start. I’m waiting for some sort of revelation from God showing me what kind of work He wants me to do for the rest of my life. I’m waiting to see my boy again. I’m even waiting right this minute for the fitness center to open so I can go workout.

It’s a little different now than this summer, though. Maybe I’ve grown more patient, but it feels less like I’m “waiting my life away.” Maybe I’m learning to enjoy the here and the now and to look for opportunities in it. Maybe.


2011, the year of less stress, exciting writing, no-mo cocoa, and hating waiting {check out that rhyming power Kay}, was definitely a year to remember. Hopefully, 2012 will be just as great.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”

~Jeremiah 29:11

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