Saturday, December 7, 2013

holiday blues

This entire week has been a low-point in the life of Jenny, year 2013. The saddest part of that statement is that nothing bad or catastrophic has actually happened. In fact, looking back on it now, I actually started the week energized and full of ambition.

Fresh off a four-day weekend with family, friends and food, I jumped headfirst into the month of December excited for the warmth and joy that always accompanies the holiday season. There were {and still are} decorations to put up, gifts to purchase, and goodies to bake. I also have to keep in mind my four goals to accomplish by the end of the year. And, on top of it all, it’s my first Christmas as a Fish - it just HAS to be one to remember.

No amount of ambition could keep me from drowning under all those expectations. And down I went, like a 2-year-old in the deep end without my trusted floaties. If it felt impossible to crawl out of bed Tuesday morning, Wednesday was even worse.

I am convinced the devil knows our weak spots like the back of his hand. And though I have never had a love affair with the snooze button, waking up just in time to climb in and out of the shower and head off to work is probably the worst thing I could do to myself.

No workout. No breakfast. And no Jesus time makes Jenny a very sour girl.

On my commute home Wednesday evening, Jesus and I had a heart-to-heart about these expectations I was carrying around. Though I have been praying every night that Daniel and I can stay focused on the only True Reason for celebration this December, I had somehow let decorating a tree and piling presents underneath distract me.

I needed to be reminded that making everything about Jesus doesn’t mean that…
  • my house would be perfectly clean for my mom and my nana’s arrival.
  • every decoration on the tree will be homemade like Daniel requested.
  • I will eat 5 small, healthy meals a day without cheating.
  • everyone will receive thoughtful, handmade gifts from me.
  • I will follow my exercise plan exactly every single day.

Making everything about Jesus means taking each day one step at a time, basking in His presence, and constantly reminding myself that He gave the greatest gift of all. His sacrifice on the cross paid my debt, granting me eternity with Him in heaven and grace and peace on earth.

This week my Jesus Calling devotional read, “When you keep your focus on Me, you experience both My Presence and My Peace. Worship Me as King of kings, Lord of lords, and Prince of Peace. You need My Peace each moment to accomplish My purposes in your life… Walk with Me along paths of Peace; enjoy the journey in My Presence.”

For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.
~Isaiah 9:6


  1. Thanks Jenny, you hit the nail on the head - as always :)

  2. :) Praying for you, girl! Enjoyed your newsletter.

  3. Well said! Hope this week is full of peace and joy for you. :)

  4. Thank you, Kristy! It got a little worse and then a lot better. :)